We Have Always Been There

I'm getting married on September 5th... and expecting my second child on November 27th.  I have a busy fall and winter ahead of me!

There are times I feel I must be the worst mother ever.  Most times, actually... I so often feel I must be doing nothing right with her.  The tantrums she throws remind me of a person possessed... she is often so angry and says such hurtful things.  Why does a six-year-old behave that way?  She complains that I don't buy her enough stuff or give her money... while I bust my butt trying to provide for her... and I know it does no good to try reasoning with a child, but sometimes I lose my presence of mind that tells me not to bother, and try explaining things to her... usually that ends in her telling me she hates me, or accusing me of not loving her.

 

Someone, please tell me this is just a phase.

 

It is so close to Christmas and only through the generosity of some very sweet people do I have a gift from Santa for my little "angel(?)" - and at this point I am wondering whether I should even give it to her!!

 

I hope you are all having a wonderful winter so far, keeping warm and safe.

 

Merry Christmas all.

Not such a Christian move, I'll give you that.

 

Where do I even start?  Back in July, I met Ben.  Broke up with Chris, who was still living in ND and whose divorce was still not final...

 

Ben moved in with us in August.

 

I know it's not a Christian way to live.

 

At any rate, here we are, sort of a family... me, Meaghan, Ben, Cooper (Meaghan's dog), Rambo (a cockatiel we got right after Ben moved in because a co-worker found him flying around outside and no one claimed him) and Eddie (a gecko Ben just got from a friend who moved out of state).

 

I guess we shall see how things progress.

 

I hope everyone is well & have a Happy Thanksgiving!!

I had a scare Sunday, my daughter, who is now 6 years old, fell off a paddle boat and I didn't realize she is as strong a swimmer as she is, so I panicked and jumped in the water with all my clothes on to "rescue" her.  It turned out she didn't need rescuing.  That child is so tough.  She asked if we couldn't just stay and swim some more since I was already soaked.  Unfortunately, I was a little freaked out, and in no mood for swimming, so we went home.

 

Other than that it was a pretty good weekend.  I watched chick flicks with one of my favorite girlfriends Friday night.  Saturday was a lazy day.  Sunday, after the water scare, I went to some friends' house and we had a bonfire.  Overall, not a bad weekend.

 

Hope everyone's well =)